I once was a part of a healing modality in which, with much training and clinical experience, I had became an “advanced” healer and teacher. I remember a student at one of the courses that I was teaching saying to me “I notice that all of the advanced healers become really calm and boring, almost dead, the farther along the path they go. It makes me question actually whether I want to become an advanced healer”.
With each surrender of self – a fixed, defined, exclusive entity that experiences “I am this but not that” – there is a return to the void. To nothingness. To being no one. With it comes a release into freedom and the relaxation that comes with not expending energy toward maintaining a false sense of self.
This is the also the way of cultivating divine masculine.
Many meditation practices, traditions, techniques, aim towards this, but stop there. This stopping is what creates the calm, boring, lack of dynamism and flow effect. There is a lack of cultivation of the feminine.
What I’ve noticed is that with each dissolution, a new experience of self naturally builds again. If one continues to let nature guide the process, a new experience of self arises from that freedom, from the relaxation, from the void. Instead of a fixed, sticky (identification) sense of self, there is a continually flowing experience of uniqueness… one that flows from one experience of being to another depending on what is naturally arising moment by moment. This is essence. With each dissolution of false sense of self, the essence gains substance, is refined, purified, ever more dynamic.
This arising back into form is the reclaimation of the manifest world. We experience ourselves as one not just conceptually or spiritually, but with the furniture in the room, with the bodies around us, with the planets and galaxies, with the trees, rivers and seas, our homes, our cars, with the space between all these things.
This is the cultivation of divine feminine.
Both are needed ~ Disappearing, the surrender of the self, leading to the continual free expression of the divine masculine ~
~ Reappearing, the rebirthing of self as a reflection of the transcendant into form in play, the continual free expression of the divine feminine.
Together the ultimate culmination ~ the full unification of emptiness and form, the manifest and unmanifest, experienced personally, locally. This, is the recipe for Magic ~ and also my understanding of tantra ~ the highest expression of nature in form. And the path to mastery of ourselves through the conscious, continual, spontaneous creation of our essence in form.
~ Thessa Sophia ~
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